andai semuanya bisa lebih mudah :')

*waktu liat catatan gue, beberapa tahun lalu
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A Little Too Not Over You
oleh: David Archuleta


It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.

It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,

And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.


Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..

kalau ngedenger lagu itu, kayaknya aga nusuk ke hati.
tentang seseorang yang gamau ngeakhirin rasa cintanya kepada seseorang yang udah sama orang lain.
kenapa harus gak mau ngakhirin?, kenapa harus susah ngelupain seseorang dari hidup lo? well, tanya hati lo.

seseorang itu punya tempat sendiri di hati lo? atau rasa cinta lo yang kelewat besar buat dia?
kadang gue suka mikir, kenapa kadang kita mencintai sesorang yang gak mencintai kita? atau mungkin kenapa kita harus masih mencintai seseorang yang mungkin udah gak mencintai kita?
apa itu adil? gue fikir yang ada cuma ada rasa sakit.

move on, saat lo ada di posisi itu semua orang bakal nyuruh lo MOVE ON. tapi buat lo yang ngejalanin nya, gak semudah itu.
mencintai seseorang, adalah menjadikan dia bagian dari hidup lo. itu kenapa lo bakal ngerasa sakit saat lo kehilangannya.

lalu lo harus apa? apa yang harus lo lakukan kepada kenangan yang terus memaksa untuk terus di ingat?
dia bisa lupain gue, kenapa gue gak bisa?
kenapa gue gak bisa hidup seperti biasa? seperti saat gue belum mencintai dia?

kalau aja gue bisa teriak depan mukanya,
" ajarin gue cara lo ngelupain gue. gue harus apa buat ngebuang semua tentang lo..!!!. GUE GAK BISA. GUE GAK BISA LUPAIN LO....!!!!!!!!!!"


andai semuanya gak sesakit ini, andai semuanya bisa lebih mudah.
mungkin gue bakal bisa lebih ngerasa lega walau tanpa dia.